preparing for the week ahead...

vintage leather jacket, sweater & boots- Zara, hat- Holt Renfrew, denim- JBrand, scarf- Oak  + Fort

busy week ahead.

(black friday week...)

...oh the joys of working in a mall.

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THIS sunday.

sundays.

what would i do without them?

honestly, though.

a day to go to church and praise God and really soak in the good Word of the pastor's message. 

lately i've been feeling pretty convicted on these days.

heck. lately? for the past (good) WHILE.

but man, today has really given me a great, new perspective.

i don't know why TODAY. 

i don't know why it wasn't 2 or 3 or 4 or however many years ago.

but today i snapped out of it and realized how sick and tired i was of this feeling of heavy

 guilt i came to church with every. single. sunday. 

the sort of guilt where i would sit in church feeling so upset with myself about the decisions

 and actions that i made throughout the week knowing i needed to change while i would

 then come back to church the following week and once again feeling the same conviction,

 while this went on week after week after week. 

thank GOD our God is a forgiving God. 

right?

thank GOD that He is always there with open arms. 

always willing to take us back when we ask for forgiveness.

never saying "well... i forgive you but i'm still a little upset that you lied about [insert 'lie' here __________]."

it's done. in the past. 

my sins are forgiven.

today, after church, i had the chance to spend some good heart-to-heart time with my

lovely friend, Skylar.

i thank GOD for her. 

i can't say how blessed i feel to have another Jesus-loving 

(and i say Jesus-loving with zero shame) friend in my life 

who i can speak to about my faith and who can give me great spiritual advice. 

so...

 i really just thank GOD for my wonderful friend, Skylar.

for this day.

and for always expressing His overflowing, unconditional love (through everything).

amen.

▲natt

say "scarfing scarves" 10 times quickly.

coat- Aritzia, scarf- Zara, bag & shoes- Oak + Fort, DYI distressed denim

i feel like i should make specific posts on 

"How to: Live in your scarf".

...seeing as i have a never-ending collection of scarves in my closet.

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call me corny.

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you aren't livin' unless you're crotch-droppin'...

Adidas tee, black mesh top- H&M, drop crotch pants- JNBY, long cardigan- Oak + Fort

Say wahhh?

today is the day that marks the purchase of these incredible drop-crotch pants.

WOW.

comfort and style get a 10/10 in my books. 

i don't know about you guys, but i found this week in particular to be extremely chilly,

especially in the mornings and evenings (...duh).

all i want is to just be warm and comfortable when leaving the house.

and that's why i wouldn't be surprised if you caught me in these pants

for the rest of this winter season.

.... la la laaa ....

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Wednesday .

 faux suede vest- H&M, distressed sweater- Sheinside, vegan leather ("Max") leggings- Oak + Fort, toque- Aritzia, Nike Free Runs

Man, oh man.

#worklyfe is so much better when you have a happy pair of feet.

If i could wear these shoes everyday, i would.

unfortunately, i cannot.

oh well.

that being said, it was a good workday for natt. 

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head full'a curlZ

these were taken at the end of september. 

bye bye tanned skin.

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why don't i miss you the way other people do

"Oh ship setting out on a distant voyage,

Why don't I miss you the way other people do

After you've vanished from sight?

Because, when I don't see you, you cease to exist.

And if I feel nostalgia for what doesn't exist,

The feeling is in relationship to nothing.

It's not the ship but our own selves that we miss."

- A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe: 
Selected Poems

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me ----> coat: i got my eyes on you .

coat (CT 312) & gray tee- Oak + Fort, (Finch) pants- Aritzia, plaid shirt- Buffalo Exchange, Nike Free Runs

i had one of those mornings where you're staring at your closet thinking 

"i don't know how to dress myself today".

i nearly made the mistake of leaving my house in the most unexciting (i'm so serious) outfit.

i had to do a double take in the bathroom mirror to realize before walking out the door.

thank (freakin) goodness.

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black, white & teal.

i decided to do it.

because it was about time.

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sunday in seattle.

all photos taken by: donnel garcia

denim jacket- Community Thrift, trousers & toque- Aritzia, sweater, scarf & gray tee- Oak + Fort, chucks- Converse, retro-reflective backpack- Nocturnal Workshop

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Ma hitta .

 

yesterday i spent the day in seattle with my homie, Donnel.
the last time i'd gone to seattle was 2 summers ago.
as we strode along the streets we couldn't help but point out it's 
similarities to vancouver.
maybe that's already an obvious observation but i haven't been to seattle enough to
actually allow myself to take proper notice of these things. 

our day consisted of the seattle outlet mall, walking about the "downtown" area as well as capitol hill and along ballard street as it got dark out. 

it was refreshing to shop alongside this dude cause we share similar taste.

there was one vintage store we hit up that had a downstairs where we found a huge section full of costumes. that was fun.

after passing Dick's for the first time where Donnel nearly face planted into the cement 
(having one of the co-workers from Dick's witness the incident 
who pointed at him, mouthing "i saw that"), we thought, naturally, 
it'd be cool to go back and grab choco milkshakes. 
so we did.
they were yummy.

i couldn't get over how many american apparel's and urban outfitters we passed by.
too many.
but we did hop into one urban outfitters that had a photo booth on the top level 
& took full advantage of that...
also fun.

although it got dark at 5 we still stuck around, drove a bit, walked a bit.
hit up starbucks for the 3rd (?) time.
it was going to be a bit of a drive back.

as we journeyed home we sang and donnel, being the amazing impersonator that he is,
planted his skills on each song that came on.
we laughed, joked and chatted about our lives.
it was cool to get to know this side of donnel.
he's a real rad dude and please, you guys... his steaze!


click HERE for his tumblr (some fantastic photography & work)
and feel free to follow his instagram: donnelgarcia

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hat & seek .

 jacket- H&M, hat- Holt Renfrew, faux leggings & bag- Oak + Fort, shoes- Aldo (old)

i am not an impulse buyer. 

well, not on a "normal" basis.

but yesterday.

ruh roh...

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thursday.

puffer vest & tartan shirt- [2nd hand], black bag, shoes & sweater- Oak + Fort, denim- JBrand, hat- Zara

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the staircase.

your left hand
taps a finger
on the table.
your right hand
claws through your hair.
your inhale,
exhale,
destroys the feeble walls
you've used to guard yourself.

he 

did not build your walls,

he

did not design your expectations

and he

did not create your fragile heart.

he 

did not ask to be anything

other than another someone.

memories,

creeping through your skin

making it so that

sanity and insanity are one

and the only thing that makes sense

is 

nothing

and you blame others 

who give a shit about you.

but you claw that right hand
and you rip at your scalp.
and you turn that left hand
into a fist
and unapologetically 
beat the table.

with

salty,

blinded,

mascara tears 

that guilt,

and curse,

and are found

misplaced.

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the feel of feeling nothing .

this morning

 as i stumbled downstairs

in my outdated, butt-ugly pajamas, 

undeniably in need of a shower,

as i brewed myself a pot of coffee

and sat down to take my first sip

with zit cream dotted randomly around my face

with my hair hanging in a half ponytail

and my nail polish mainly chipped off both hands,

as i took that first sip 

i realized,

you'd find me hideous.

[and somehow that didn't bother me] 

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always .

i gotta thank you.
for always never being there for me.
for always never giving me advice.
for always never admitting your mistakes.
for always never lending a hand.
for always never listening.
for always never being genuine.  
for always never showing how much you care.

i gotta thank you.
for always never thinking of yourself.


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a taste of tumblr .

* i do not own any of these images. all can be found on my tumblr* 

the land of palm.

vintage designer.

coats that dream of touching the floor.

mixed ethnicities.

dream homes.

pretty plants. 

freckles.

▲natt